Mother of Boys is a portrait of my family taken over three years, a period where I studied a degree in art. This project investigates my relationship with my children, my identity and the balancing act I perform daily.
It was when I started my degree that I began to feel a sense of guilt in regard to my life choices, I am questioned subjectively and rhetorically when people discover I am a Mother, “How do you find the time?” and “You have children?”. These are the simplest most painful questions I receive and in that moment I am engulfed with guilt as I attempt to defend my very being.
Standards on how I should act are imposed, be it intentionally or not, upon the revelation that I have children regardless of my own personality and in an unconscious decision, I find myself refraining from saying I have children. This action is not one made out of shame but one of self preservation and presentation. I have included images of myself in the form of self-portraits or photos my children have captured of me, alongside images of our life together, this content makes for a condensed version of my life over three intense years. I may not regale talks of motherhood in a constant stream of consciousness but my children affect and inspire me greatly, they define who I am purely with their existence. My Sons will know just how significant they are to me; this project shows that they have my focus indefinitely.